Dear Mom,
Today sadness has taken hold. It's the first marching band tonight. I know I should be excited for the kids to go, but due to the weather (could rain) I'm been making excuses to stay inside. That's just not like me. I hate not being like me. It's hard work actually. I've been waiting for summer all year. Those lazy hazy beautiful beach days and warm nights. And today I'm hoping summer can come another time, when I'm better. When I'm more like me.
So I think we will hunker down and have a movie night and hold my kids and husband tight.
And think about everything in my life that I'm grateful for. And right now that's my little boy who just gave me a hug and asked me why I was crying and I said, I just miss your grandma, and he said, don't worry mommy, she's still with us, remember -- right in your heart.
If that won't make me smile, I don't know what will.
I love you mom. And I'll keep working hard. I'm following the plan. And I will not stop until I get back to myself. My family deserves to have me back. And I promise you that I will make you proud and I will come back to them. I will be myself again.
Help me mom, stay with me, and help me live through your example. Loving, fun, and doing the little things that matter, with a big open heart.
Your daughter always,
Lisa
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