One of those days

Mom,

Today is one of those days.  It's kind of dull outside.  Cooper is home sick.   And I feel a little like a shut in.  I guess it's good after the busy weekend.   But I've been getting a wee bit more worried lately with the drop in my medication.   Overall I'm still way better, I'm just frustrated that it seems to be a process and can't just ALL be behind me now.  I just want to stop looking over my shoulder, worried that it will return and I'll be back in that spot.  I must continue to TRUST this process and have FAITH that I'm getting better and better, and SOON I will be all better and right back to myself.

I miss you.  Wish we could hang out today.   Watch a movie.  Or the Bachlorette tonight. 

Instead, hopefully I'll snuggle up to Dave and watch it.   He is such an amazing husband.   I really need and want a date night with him soon.  It's so hard to get us time with little kids.   And especially with my early bedtime these days.

I guess you were looking down Saturday night and saw that Deanna proposed to Ryan, while we took Jayce over night.   Cooper had so much fun.  And I really like Ryan.  I really hope they have a long happy life together.    If there's anything you can do about it from up there, give her a little extra strength and love to make it through the tough times together.

And stay with me too, mom.    I need you.
xo
PS -- Dad put up the tire swing for Cooper and he loves it.  He's such a good grandpa and dad.