A little down

Dear mom,

I'm a little down today, worrying about things, and just no feeling positive.  I didn't get out for my walk today, no yoga, or meditation -- so that could be part of the problem.   No adult contact throughout the day, and dad's working all week --- and I don't know if I can manage both kids at the beach myself at such different stages.    I'm feeling a bit lonely, a bit like a person without a plan.   I want to move forward.   I want a plan to work towards.  I need a better routine during the day, and I need to be trusting of the new doctor and my medication management.   Things have been so much better, but sometimes I'm afraid of falling back in, of failing.  

All I know is that I love my family so much.
And I miss you like crazy.  
More grief work or cognitive behaviour therapy with my therapist tomorrow, which I'm looking forward to.

I think I'll make a plate of nachos and watch the bachelor.   See if that can cheer me up and break out of this little funk.

xo